Wednesday, September 5, 2007
This is simply fucked up. I hate people throwing weights around and demanding respect just because they have higher authority. Complaining i dont show politeness and respect when they are not even polite themselves. The pot calling the kettle black!!! Zei han zhuo zei!!! Simple logic right?!? Give respect and you shall get respect. Give fucked up attitute, you shall get fucked up attitute.
Early in the morning kena this kind of shit.
I on the computer and realised some of the entries were missing. So i went to enquire with A cos he has the highest possibility of touching the computer. I merely asked "Did you change any entries in the com yesterday ar?" Then i got replies in shitty tones. How would you feel!!! Any human also have their limits. Of course i got angry la and subconsiously i was using shitty tone too. In the end?!? Kena scolded by B, saying i must be polite to the person and not speak in a harsh tone. So i said, " who was the one who is impolite and harsh first?" Guess what kind of ridiculus reply i got. Its probably one of the most ridiculus thing i ever heard.
"Yes, he can be impolite and speak in a harsh tone. But you cannot speak back to him in a harsh tone. You must respect his position as a senior and executive." WTH!!! I think that is a human's basic instinct lo. People slap you what do you do? Slap back right? Respect i will sure give. But not when im treated with impoliteness man. Its like someone beat you and expect you to smile at them?!? Fuck lo no way!!! I never beat him back is already damn nice of me. So angry. So many time i got shouted when im not even at fault. Damn humiliating. Once, I asked B a question and he told me to check with C cos he don't know. So i called C and D answered the phone. D asked me what is it i want to ask C. So i told him that B wanted me to ask C a question. In the end, B shout at me so fucking loud lo. "WHY YOU GO AND ASK D? I ASK YOU TO ASK C RIGHT?!?" I didnt ask D lo. D asked me so i merely told him. How am i suppose to know i cant tell D. Furthermore D is my superior lei. Then B say "you dunno how to ask me ar". I feel he is so brainless lo. How would i ask what is a apple if i dont even know an apple existed!! When i got malign, who know, i cant even say anything. Not like its the first time. The other time, i was told that its my job to to make sure money is banked in, make sure this correct that correct. So i did. In the end, even after many times of reminding, no one listen and later i kena say that i never pay attention to my work, this dunno that dunno. When i ask, no one tell me. Then what you want me to do. ArrRg!!! I feel so wierd that its my job but i dunno much about it. I feel like im just a hand and others is the mouth. I simply write what others ask me to write without understanding what's going on. Angry ar!!! Hope that one day we wake up, our role changed. Then probably they will know how it feels to be in my shoes and probably by then, i will also know how it feels to be their's cos i wont say im all right and they are all wrong. Im not a saint anyway.
11:16 AM
